Everything's changing!

I would be lying if I told you living in Kauai is all roses.

This place has a way of taking one apart but slowly, gently, and methodically putting them back together in small and unexpected ways.

I have been absolutely exhausted after moving into my tiny studio apartment (which I love, by the way, and will begin to make it more of my own space bit by bit). I guess if you pair moving with learning an entirely new area, bus schedule, and several very early morning shifts at work, it's gonna get insane.

I'm working on staying healthy because people are getting sick all around me at work. That will not do!

After getting off work, today, the last thing I wanted to do was go anywhere or do anything but I pushed myself yet again. I took a very long walk on the beach, stopping to take incredibly short yet potent power naps several times.

Nothing like falling asleep to the sound of the ocean or breathing in that salt air!

I focused on staying present and enjoying the beauty all around me. I sang songs and looked for seashells.

All of the things I found myself clinging to back on the mainland are slowly slipping away. Life is different here. If something doesn't happen, it means either it wasn't meant to be or there's another way to go about experiencing it.

Possessions have lost most of their meaning. Give me the basics to survive and I'll be happy. Now, that's not to say that when my truck and Abraham arrive, I'm not going to weep with joy....BECAUSE I AM!!!!!!!

I found myself taking a shower, outside, in the daylight for the first time, today. In the light of day, it became very apparent that it is not private at all. A handful of people were having a conversation right next to me as I was in the stall, NAKED. What's funny if that I didn't even care. Maybe I am a closet nudist ;) That's definitely a change!

I'm excited for my day off tomorrow. I will SLEEP IN, go into town and get a new bus pass, make a trip to Wally World and get some necessities for my new pad, and then my friend, Noodle, invited me to hang out with her and paint! Did you get that? P-A-I-N-T! You should have seen how my eyes shown as I smiled, vigorously bobbing my head, yes, when she asked me if I wanted to paint with her! I think tomorrow will be an epic day off!

I do have to say, though, that I'm REALLY looking forward to when I can get a string of days off so that I can go camping. I just have to be patient for a couple more weeks. Then I think I can put my bid in with the boss lady.

I realize as I write this that I'm all over the place but there are so many thoughts crashing around in my head. On the one hand, there's this sheer joy and deep contemplation balancing act. Then there's the learning of hard yet necessary lessons about life and my own heart and mind. Pair all of that will the thought of loosing my childlike wonder while giving myself permission to blossom into the woman I was always meant to be. There's some pretty heady stuff going on inside of me!

Hope you're able to track with me. Being able to describe my process and share my story gives me great joy! I hope it is a blessing!

Love you!